stick shifts and safety belts

so some of you have asked what will happen if Yale and i end up being together for a while and he wants to read my blog.



he's never going to read my blog. i have put up all the internet force fields available to me so that that will not happen.



and if by some miracle of God's grace we "end up together - together", i'm guessing it will just be a funny story that i will eventually sheepishly reveal to him all these early-stage ramblings of a crazed neurotic. luckily, if we really get that far he will know ALL about my neuroses.

in the same blog conversation, it was brought to my attention that my blog tends to share more of the intimate details of my life than most people's actual journals. so, out of respect for my quickly diminishing air of mystery and my friends' privacy, i will make efforts to keep the kiss-and-tell portions of my blogging to a vaguer minimum. if you would like all the steamier(?) details, please feel free to request them...

i will say that things are sort of progressing with Yale. we spent big chunks of the weekend together, and i really do enjoy spending time with him. i can tell that his confidence is amping up, which is a good thing, and i'm keeping my fingers crossed that i will soon meet him at the level of cute twitteriness that he seems to have for me. i like him. i do. i need to make sure that i "LIKE" him.

but i will also say that overly premeditated car kissing is NOT the best way to try to make a move out of the platonic sphere where we have been delicately treading water. if you picture an awkwardly adorable john hughes scene and make it a lot more awkward but still a little adorable, you pretty much have a good idea. imagine the split second decision making i had to process:

'ummmm....he's going to kiss me and i still have my seatbelt on. if i quick pop out of it, he'll think i'm going to try to climb on him....but if i keep it on, i'll be trapped!'

i opted for the trapped constraint of the seatbelt. no worries, friends, it was all quick and innocent enough. but i would like a do-over. stuck in a half-pivot over my gear shift is definitely not my best look....

i may or may not keep you posted.