ok, ok, so i'm sure that all these lovey dovey blog postings are getting a little tiresome. where's the love-lorn Jesusfish you all know and love? she's gone. i couldn't even get her back if i tried. please see the previous 120 or so blog postings if you miss her ;)
its crazy, i know. i feel a little ridiculous about how easy and quickly everything seems to be falling into place about Yale. it shocks me a little bit by how unafraid i am of everything. of him, of the future, of the idea of being deliberate about discerning if this is what i think it is. what he thinks it is.
if i was fancy and knew how to set up a blog-based online poll like i know other friends have done, i would ask: is it foolish and/or a bad idea to decide about a month or so into a relationship that you have been given "the one" as a happy lovely gift? and secondly, is it ridiculous and/or ill advised to discuss this calmly and rationally with your new love? (bonus: HE brought it up! not me! i just got to nod and say "Me TOO!" enthusiastically). and thirdly, will the world come crashing down around me/us if we start cautiously and prayerfully discussing our future options and plans? ie: will our friends and family disown us if we attempt the "dating/engagement/married-within-a-year" thing?
gentle readers, i would like to remind you, and myself, that less than about 3 months ago i had never heard of this person. never heard of him, never met him, and certainly had no illusions about loving someone this quickly or ANY silly notions that this could even be on the horizon for me. none. in fact, i'm pretty sure i was convinced that something like this would never happen to me. i imagined maybe meeting someone some day at a party or a volunteer event. months and months of awkward dates and wondering and deep-delving conversation. agonized deliberation. begging prayers and wringing hands and biting finger nails and on-again-off-again feelings of happy/fearful/anxious/excited. it is not like that at all, and somewhere in the back of my mind i wonder if it is just a little too good to be true. i try to analyze and worry and pick apart. but i don't want to, and i don't get very far. because even my very practiced cynical tendancies can find very little to dredge.
to my praying friends: if you wouldn't mind saying a little prayer for us, that would be awesome. just, you know, something along the lines of "please tell Jesusfish that she is being ridiculous if that is, in fact, the case." or however you like to pray for wisdom and discernment for your friends.
i will say this: being this happy is a very welcomed change of scenery.
2 comments:
So exciting. I, of course, will support and pray for your rational discernment in examining this relationship. But I'm sold it feels right even to this stranger of Yale's. I had this strange little vision as I read this post that your mom and dad were together holding hands skipping along the clouds while 'Feeling Groovy' played. They were looking down at our little blue marble and pointing and saying "Yeah, that's the guy - that's the one we should send to her! That would make her very happy and he would take care of her".
and no I haven't been eating peyote.
A good friend of mine from college was a unique girl that scared most guys off, because of her accomplishments and strong sense of herself. One Christmas when the rest of the world was celebrating, she went to study and take pics in the everglades where she met the man of her life, and no he wasn't the swamp creature. She later won the lottery, and they have been happily married in CO for decades. God sends us people into our lives for special reasons, and we should just go along for the ride. I'm like Jess, I think your parents have had a wing in this!
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