overboard

i watch the ships go sailing by
if i play the girl will you play the guy
and i never thought i would be the type
to fall to fall to fall, to fall to fall to fall

so guess what? i have a boyfriend. a real one. and it is really nice.

yale came over yesterday to help with the Shark Week Party preparations, but i must say that he turned out to be quite a distraction from the Very Big List of things that i had to accomplish. a cute, disarming distraction, but a distraction nonetheless.

roommate and i talked for a while after he left and i (well, she, but i agreed wholeheartedly) realized that the things that are making me the most nervous about this relationship are actually the very things that contribute to it being a HEALTHY relationship. like the fact that i am happy to see him when he's here but that i don't want to spend every waking minute with him. and that it seems strangely unstrange and happy and peaceful that we have decided that he will go to portugal with me in december, and to DC with me in october. i was actually worried about the fact that i was NOT WORRIED about those things. seriously. after i had just gotten through talking with roommate the night before about the sillyness of tertiary emotions.

there is a slight concern that i have been put on a pedestal. and i am having a hard time believing that anybody (any healthy person) ever feels as strongly about anyone so quickly as he seems to feel for me. fear. happy disbelief, but still.

i told him last night that he is only the second boy, after the random car rental place attendant at the Dallas airport last summer, to ever tell me that i am 'hot'. he says that he cannot believe that that could be true. i cannot believe that he can be for real sometimes. but i'm trying to enjoy it without giving fear a foothold.

and last night i asked him, for clarity's sake, whether he is my 'boyfriend'. and he said that if he is not already he would definitely like to be. so that's settled. not so scary. happy even.