do you realize?

do you realize
that everyone you know
someday will die?

flaming lips is singing that helpful reminder to me through the radio right now as i type on my laptop in my room. thanks flaming lips. i think i got that one covered.

we went home today to take family photos even though mom is actually still in crazycrazy pain in the hospital. hooooney had already planned to come home with me with her camera and her mad skillz, and all the sibs were planning to be there for the weekend for the shoot, so we just worked around the constraints of the fact that mom could only give us roughly 15 minutes of sitting upright in a wheel chair. the doctor let us take her to the hospital atrium into the finally warm afternoon so we could get the pictures. hoooney did a fantastic job of getting our notoriously rowdy crowd to get it together long enough to take some really lovely photos.

we took some at roo and christopher's house too of just my sister and brother in law and brother and sister in law and .... me. oh how i wish we had had a matched set of 6. or at least wish that angus the giant chocolate lab could have been there for me to hang onto. one becomes very much aware of ones singleness in moments like these. perspective! perspective, i know. mom's horrific pain vs. whaa-whaa i'm not married. right.

hooooney and i came home right after the photos were in the bag. it looks likely that i will be moving home to help take care of mom at least part time in the very near future. she'll probably go to rehab from the hospital, but after that? i can't figure out a way that it would be safe for her to live alone.

so we shall see. i'm very thankful we got some really cute shots of us all together. not the ideal situation, but i suspect that there will not be many ideal situations on the horizon for any of us.

is anyone surprised that i forged valiently into the pitching current of uncertainty by dropping $90 at victoria's secret?

seriously people, there are worse vices. don't judge.