head over feet

shit! shit shit shit.

i think i am smitten.

eek. umm....yay?

thanks, roommate for your comment on yesterday's post. and for staying up even later last night to talk and giggle with me.

well, the questions of "am i really that physically attracted to him?" have been answered in a resounding "well i guess so!". his adorableness and goofy sweetness have won me over. totally over. like head over feet. over. done.

shit.

now what am i supposed to do?

he came over last night for a "quick hello" after watching a movie with his friend who lives in logan square. i was feeling icky and sad because my dear goldfish, starmile, had died yesterday morning and i didn't know what to do with her tiny fishy body. so i made him walk to the lake with me, at like 10:30 at night, and return her to the water. and we came home and hung out with roommate for a little while. and then roommate went to bed and we made out. and it was like a bizarro, crazy thing. that didnt' sound right. what i mean is, i have not kissed a boy who i actually also LIKED in, i don't know, over FIVE YEARS.

and so, there you have it. the JesusFish is smitten.

yikes.

i will try to keep my postings to a minimum of treacly sap. or maybe i'll go back to writing about Big Things like love and Jesus and fear and hope and optimism. you guys don't want to read about my silly boy stories, do you? well, lemme know either way.

and try to help me not freak out and ruin a good thing. ok?
thanks.