Faith

There are plenty of Jesusy songs you could sing in your head about Faith, and that's cool. But in full disclosure, I had George Michael in my head when I jotted this post title.

So, Hubs has decided to take a leap of faith and NOT take the teaching job for next year. It has been an agonizing decision all around, but I'm feeling happy and peaceful and relieved that that is where he/we landed. It is going to stretch us. In many different ways. Practically, financially, relationally. I just keep imagining us holding hands and jumping off a cliff into a waterfall, like people do in the movies.

It is hard to turn down something that you love in the short term for the hope of a long-term vision coming to fruition. And this whole decision/discernment process has opened my eyes to the way different people view risk.  To some, it is too risky NOT to take a paying job, no matter what your long term goals are. Unemployment, even temporary unemployment, is the biggest gamble. To others, risking the strong finish of over a decade of work for a 1 year job sounds like absolute nonsense. A ridiculous risk.

We decided to put our money on Hubs, and the gifts and skills that the Lord has given him and cheers for him to put to the best use.

We're making the leap. I can feel my dress fabric fluttering in the wind as we plunge towards the rushing water. Kind of exhilarating, even if I'm screaming most of the way down.