Rumor Has It

We've hung out with some married + kids families a few times in the last week or so, and each time, Hubs has casually worked this sentence into the flow of conversation: "JK and I are seriously thinking about having kids within the next couple of years..." And then completing the thought by tying it to whatever the friend had been discussing regarding their son/daughter/brood/infant.

I squeezed his knee under our hosts' table the first time he said it. The stunned friend (and blog reader) across the table looked at me quizzically and I just smiled. In the car on the way home from dinner, I asked Hubs about his surprising statement, and he said that he had been thinking about it a lot in the past few weeks and that he felt moved to change his default position from "default = no kids" to "default = kids". I had to ask him to clarify if he meant having a baby, or adopting or fostering. He thinks both.

Huh.

Well, you heard it here first, blogfriends. From the mouth of Hubs. We are seriously considering having kids within the next couple of years.

Can I confess that his change of heart spooked me a little? For one thing, I don't want to convert my blog to a mommyblog. Not that I have anything against mommyblogs - I read a whole bunch of them! They are great! It just makes me freak out to think of it. Almost 300 blog posts later, it is C-R-A-Z-Y to think about how much my life has changed since I first started recording the misadventures of a single JesusFish. The older I get, the more I appreciate the Lord's sense of humor.
I'm thankful that Hubs and I can talk honestly and with clear heads about our hearts and minds about this baby stuff. I don't know where we will end up on it, or if we're even able to have a kiddo of our own. Or if we can afford it. Or if Hubs' job makes it even realistic. Or if we'll have any say in the matter, when it gets right down to it.

In case you're curious, our Path of Parenthood Contemplation includes getting our eating habits and health on an upward spiral, and plugging the holes of financial irresponsibility in our budget. And reading, talking, praying, plotting. And probably doing some babysitting. Counseling, researching, and job hunting may also be on the menu.
After shelling out almost $800 in vet bills again this month for AugDog, we're beginning to realize that cashola may be the biggest hurtle our brains will have to get over before getting serious about this parenthood thing. We'll see! Always an adventure, this life.