Some of you fine readers (and anyone who has the misfortune of getting ranting calls from me) know that I have been struggling with my job. There are a lot of frustrations, and I won't go into them on the blog, but suffice to say that virtually NOTHING about the job I do for 9-10 hours a day is the job I thought I would be doing when we relocated our lives across the country so I could take this new gig.
But I've been busy, working reallyreallyhard, making progress. I've met some big obstacles and given them my all.
I thought.
My review was today, and let's just say that I had to muster every ounce of professionalism not to cry/barf/scream.
It is so incredibly deflating to feel like your hard work and struggle have met not with encouragement and kudos, but with disappointment and "we thought you would have come a lot farther by now".
Today is a day that I wish I could run far, far away. When I question pretty much every decision I have made in the last 8 months. When I wonder what it will take for me to get my mojo back.
So anyway. Here is my blogging vent.
Over and OUT.
3 comments:
Oh god, I dread my first performance review. I'm sorry you have to deal with that. What a kick in the stomach.
ugh! That seems so unfair.
i bet they're all deatheaters.
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