let go

so let go
just let go
jump in
only what you waiting for?
it's alright
cause there's beauty in the breakdown

had my first public mom meltdown yesterday. totally lost it at the wamu on clybourn.

the bank teller was so kind and sweet to me, but she happened to be the bajillionth person to tell me that i had managed to do some paperwork incorrectly and that they could not help me until i had X paper signed by Y person and blah blah blah. and i had just been in rockford that morning when i could have done that, had i known that i needed it, and now will have to make another trip during business hours to get it done. exactly the way i want to use my quickly dwindling vacation time this summer!

but as i sat at the desk, sobbing, and the bank lady is handing me tissues and getting me water as i try to get it together, i realized that the bank lady has also started crying. and she just looked at me with tears welling up and said "i don't know what i would do if i lost my mother. she is everything to me. as soon as you leave i'm going to call her and tell her i love her and thank her for everything she does for me. she's babysitting my little girl right now. i love her so much!"

so out of my breakdown, some beauty.