crazy

just wanted to post that.
thanks to the blogger "absolutely beautiful things" from which i ganked that image.

this whole eharmony thing. man. it's rough. i'm not accustomed to getting all this attention, these flirty emails, this small but stressful cohort of guys asking me out.

looks like i will be meeting up with 2 of them this weekend some time. i haven't heard from Yale in a couple of days, which makes me a little twitchy since so far i like him best, but oh well. i'll be patient. i've been single for 5 years now, whats another few weeks?

anyway.

i've decided on a manifesto for this new foray into meeting guys. it is outlined in broad strokes by the above image.

no more hedging or shirking or backing down from my convictions. i'm not going to cover up the Jesus in me, or the freakishness, or the joys or pains of my life to try to fit what i think a guy should want from me. maybe i won't throw everything at the poor guy right away, but i'm not going to edit myself for my dates. what you see is what you get. fake boyfriends need not apply.

and if none of these boys turns into anything, well, then, i'll have to return to my original manifesto: BELIEVE Jesus is enough. BELIEVE you are beautiful. BELIEVE its gonna be good.

ok. now that i have that off my chest, i'll go back to biting my nails about how much i dislike the idea of "going on a date" with, like, 3 boys in one week.

eek.