when i finally dragged myself out of bed this morning, i was so angry with myself that i decided right then that it was going to be a bad day. i had set my alarm for 6am so i could get my 4 miles in before work, but i hit snooze not once, but 4 times. slept through what will likely be the only beautiful, sunny, cool morning of the week. weather forcast sets "humid and stormy" for every other day of this week. excellent!
add in my gross and flabby feelings of the last couple of days, and i was just delighted to get more than a fair share of cat calls, stares, and whistles while walking to the train this morning. please read "delighted" as "pissed off and furious". i was feeling gloomy and twitchy even before i got to the train.
sitting on the train reading my red eye and musing to myself about new ways to get in shape, i hear the beepbeep of my cell phone and pull it out to see a new text. from Yale. that just says "good morning sunshine".
and that was it. happy day after all.
i know, its silly. i was actually even a little irritated by his constant and incessantly jubilant attention when i was getting ready for work this morning. i was thinking about him as i dried my hair and, in my fit of gloom, was actually upset that he is so chipper, all the time. so damn encouraging, adoring, and attentive. almost like i was feeling guilty for ever even entertaining a bad mood, because he is like some manic smitten optimist on crack.
in a good way.
but he is just so damn sweet! and funny! and we exchanged about a dozen flirty text messages on the train and i pretty much forgot about the sleeping in and the self-directed anger and the irritation and the blimpy feelings of the morning and just felt good. happy.
when i was having dinner with JM&JM last night, JMbrunette offered what has been the best affirmation so far of the "rightness" of this relationship. she told me that if she could name one thing that is so different and so good about Yale and me, it's that she can see that i can totally be myself with him, and that he is crazy about me - the real me. and, she pointed out, that is very different from how it was with Epic Ex. and she should know - JM&JM have been dear ones for over 13 years!!! how crazy is that. they know me well and love me well, and i'm thankful for them.
thankful thankful thankful. blessings and love, all around.
2 comments:
So glad you have found a guy that is worth your attention. You are a great gal, and have so much to offer. I think your parents are at work in finding this one to fill your heart. Enjoy!
If JM's approve I am on board!
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